“But do people stare at you?” •
I was asked this a few days ago and I responded “well, yes, of course, but I really don’t care if they do” and it wasn’t this statement that got me thinking, but the look on her face, of shock, after I said it.
Because I truly do not care when people constantly stare at me for being bald, for not having eyelashes or eyebrows.. but when and how did I get to this point? It’s not normal.
It’s obviously simpler when I’m all done up, makeup and flattering outfit complete, to feel confident and write off the starers. But when I look like this? Walking down the street back from the gym without any makeup on, lash-less eyes exposed, face puffy from all the bread the night before, black sweatshirt and sweatpants that do absolutely NOTHING for my figure, and a bald head to top it off. How do I write off the starers when I look like this?
I think I just realized at some point that there are 7.8 billion people in the world, and that’s a whole lot of freaking opinions to try and care about every time I walk down the street. And I drove myself mad trying to care about all of them for a while. And at some point I decided the only one I really needed to care about was my own.